How are you all? I hope you are all doing very well by the grace of God. I am also doing very well by your prayers. I am going to start today's new post by greeting and congratulating all the brothers and sisters of 'ccs' on my behalf.Today I am going to share with you some special moments of life. The feelings that will bring you a feeling of pain even though they are good. Because my story today begins with a feeling of pain. So let's start friends.

It was March 31st. I was talking to my family about beautiful relationships, love and affection. But at night, my family had a little argument with her husband. My first relationship was love. He made a big deal out of a small matter about sweeping the yard. The sweeping the yard issue at night was ridiculous. It was as if he made a molehill into a palm tree and blamed me in the middle. After that, he created so many stories at night. Even while sleeping at night, he slept alone, leaving the baby on the other side. I realized that sleeping in bed with him would not be right, so I had to sleep in a separate place in a very tense way that night. He even made a plan at night to put a rope around his neck. He made such a big deal out of a small matter, which was quite painful. The next day, on the afternoon of the first day of April, his father came and took him away. He did not understand my pain at all. What kind of family is this, creating quarrels and leaving with troubles all by themselves.

But all the sorrows and pains of the mind go away when I am present among the students. Still, the moment of loneliness hurts me a lot. Not only today, it has been three years in my married life, these three years he has always done these things. He never wants to understand me, he never wants to understand my words. He always gives priority to only problems and quarrels. When a woman wants to think of herself as something big without giving importance to her husband, then problems arise in the family. And this is what is happening in my family. Anyway, later I had to take a decision that I will not be able to live in my house anymore, if he returns home, I will have to take him to a bamboo garden across the road next to the dog, he will live there in the garden with a hut.

First of all, I accepted it wholeheartedly and cut some bamboos from the bamboo garden and cleaned the place. But now I am thinking that it will be completely useless and foolish. Why would I leave my home and come here to live a family? The two of us who quarreled are the same. Why should I have to pay the price and suffer in the middle? Actually, no one is yours in this world, everyone wants their own interests. Then later, even if I brought cement poles, it seems that I have stopped. Meanwhile, my wife is not willing to live there.

That day I told him, you have brought a new fridge, we will be fishing in the pond very soon. I will try to load the fridge with fish. But before that, he left telling stories. But the fishing is going well. I feel bad, I can't eat like we do. However, our activities continue. Life doesn't stop when someone comes. But I feel very bad that my wife doesn't listen to me and doesn't follow my words. People who try to understand more than their husbands never have a happy family. But in the meantime, husbands like us have to suffer.

Where one should eat and drink at home, where one's family is not at home, it is difficult for the husband to go out. Just like that, I want to buy whatever I want and take it home and have fun together, but that fate does not happen to me. The house where I go to teach a student, the elders of that house have a crush on me, but my family does not want to see that. That is why he stays at his father's house. Here you can see a slice of watermelon on a plate. I want my wife to bring me watermelon like this and I buy it from the market. But when the family understands its own interests more, then the love seems to fail.

So now the pain of not being able to be near my child has to be filled by the students. At the beginning of school, the joy with the students in the assembly class began with my everyday life, which was supposed to be seeing my child wake up. Then the other students in the class who were my past love and affection. Here you can see that Monica is like my own child. Sometimes the girl calls me sir, sir, and also calls me father. It feels good that my child used to call me father, but today I can't hear anyone calling me because of my wife's madness. However, my students respect me and respect me, I am satisfied with that. The day passes with laughter and joy with them, sometimes in class, sometimes at events, and sometimes in the assembly class.

Yet, there is an emptiness in the heart. Just like this tree with fallen leaves. The one who has a beautiful family has a heart full of laughter and joy, like a tree full of green leaves. And the one who doesn't have a beautiful family like me has a heart full of pain like a tree with fallen leaves. It's as if this tree is my constant witness. But what can I do? Not everyone's life is happy, not everyone's wife is a devotee of their husband. And that's how human life is.