THE STRUGGLE FOR MY SURVIVAL.{20-4-2026}

My life story I can't explain,been brought up in a family that has no love or feelings just harsh and strict especially my dad that man has been my nightmare ever since I was a kid.Which is what Is affecting me today in my day to day life.I appear as been calm, quiet and cool when am burning up inside cause I don't know how to express my feelings which seems unhealthy for me.

And I know all of this came because of how my dad have been treating me ever since I was a kid, always shouting and blaming me,I was neglected of my feelings, now I have the issue of even showing out my feelings.People think maybe am shy or some am just being calm.But the truth is am just burning inside that no one can see.

I have gotten the issue of being angry easily because I feel a lot inside due to pains I have grown up with from the past,am very sensitive and just need someone to understand me.who can see my pain and encourage me.

Someone who can show me love, I taught I finally found someone, everything was becoming a heaven for me and I was gradually discovering myself.Then she left.I was so frustrated I almost lost my life through overthinking at night I couldn't sleep I sicked for 2 weeks my life turned into a mess, the person I thought was sent by God to heal me was the one who stabbed in the heart.