Two Days More Before The Year Ends And Have I Accomplished

Another rugged terrain of life had passed and I might say that I must pat myself on the back for the reason that I am able to sustain my medical needs through earning online with the most
favorite thing that I am doing, writing, blogging around, sharing my thoughts.

I can never talk the way that I am writing because when I talk I just sounded like a retarded, I do hate my voice now because my esophagus, the neck area actually had been pulled down as my backbone had gone crooked so it affected my voice although I can speak better now that my lungs are clear from fluids due to the adequate fluid out take or drawing from my dialysis.

It helps me to make a waiver about the complications that I would experience due to the settings at dialysis that I wanted to happen which is the amount of fluids that should be taken out from my body that the nurses have to set on the dialysis machine and the speed of the blood pump too because the faster the blood pump the better the clean and 250 mL/minute is just right ofr me.

Now that is a major accomplishment in my part thanks to my "Waivering", making a waiver letter so that I could get a satisfactory dialysis treatment that should be the case right from the start. Now I could breathe better and not catching my breath anymore before my dialysis.

Anyway, financial-wise I think that I am doing good, I could imagine if steem's price is one dollar again or even half a dollar for that matter, I could be dancing "with my mind only" with a great big smile on my ugly face by then. Obviously I am earning nicely but most of it just goes to my very expensive pocket-busting medicines.

It is just awesome for me to be able to earn online because this is what keeps my mind sane so I won't get to lose my mental health. It keeps my mind pre-occupied so I won't think much of my current medical situation and condition.

Plus of course it gives me a sense of security even though I still have to work on it to make things happen. It is okay tho because I do like writing. If only that I have skils that I could share or maybe if I can still do physical work then I would have been sharing more but you can only take what I can offer in this community which is my story, myself and how I am trying to fight and cope with the sandwich of health issues that I am combating all these years.

I just thank the steem community and God for allowing me to experience life some more years although my longing or desire to live and die is on a 50:50 ratio right now because I definitely do not want to live like this considering that my bone health is degrading as days passes by but I still want to see the light of another day too because of cryptocurrencies and how it would transform my life. I am determined to win and I still hope that it would not be too late. May God help me.