Lot’s On My Mind (the blatant truth)

“So you were not exercising, that’s due to lack of exercise.” Says, the judgmental, not-yet-new-doctor. This statement was told to me yesterday by the pain specialist, who does not know my entire medical history nor my lifestyle.

It is a constant barrage of judgemental and often bias comments I must deal with constantly. From so-called experts with zero medical background and what seems now like third world trained medical staff. Harsh? Well maybe, but I think it is far harsher to see someone in pain and make judgements. Worse, to a future patient or new patient.

The only upside to that visit yesterday, is that at least that doctor took his time to explain to me my neurological tests (which I was carrying) , since my expertise in the medical field is not that extensive.

Well the verdict to my relatively newfound pain (thanks hurricane Maria and the nonexistent genealogical physical help), is that I have bulging discs where I must sit my toosh, herniated discs both upper and lower extremities. Well gosh I wonder why I must hug my bed and those darn under arm crutches.

For all this I can add, no painkillers and to add further to my agonizing pain —I must endure with no medical help until August 21? Can I add a parent that also needs assistance and it must be me?

I must add my new form of transportation is a scooter that people here stare way too much to my discomfort and many judgmentally say, but I “look too young to use one” or “too bad she’s so pretty.” Other’s ignorantly believe (this includes my own Mother and the reason I must use one) that the device is an actual ‘motorcycle’. 😳 Out of all this I am trying really hard to keep my cool and not lose any marbles along the way.

If I do, do remember to have an empathetic ear, no further judgements needed. Thanks for reading my unusual rant, oops meant blog. 😉

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