RE: Making the Choice... Not to Choose - @ecotrain Question of the Week
Hi @raj808. I appreciate your ambivalence, but in this instance disagree :) Give me choice, and more choice. I'm not confused or distracted by the multiplicity of opportunity...because that's how I see choice. My needs are simple, my wants centered mostly around family and need.
I am, as you are, inclined toward nature. That's where I grew up, my early years. The city was confusing at first, all the noise and people. Unending. That's the thing that struck me most. On the other hand, my rural surroundings were suffocating, because there was little choice.
In a rural community you are pretty much defined by family and place. The community decides informally what your choices are and you have to struggle to be free of that. Which is why, I think, the children of farmers often gravitate toward the city.
That was an interesting essay. I'm so intrigued by this question, I may write a small essay myself :) First I have to finish an art entry, and get started on a science essay.... So many choices 😁
Ahh, but you are older than me agmoore. You told me you were over sixty once. I'm 39 today :) it's my birthday.... and I have to admit... I'm very drunk right now lol
To be honest, my ambivalence to choice doesn't really come from a sane place. I'm far from sane. I know that most people wouldn't have a similar obfuscation about any of this, but the last 2 years for me has been about getting gaining control over the negative chatter in my mind and learning not to identify with those thoughts. I guess this is easier without the kaleidoscope of choices the modern world bombards is all with.
Every day is a battle, to not be distracted. This is why the novel isn't written. This is why I have to limit my steem-life. My focus is none-existent. It's been like that for a long time, slowly it's getting better as time goes by :) And I work on it. Nature does help a lot, but since I lost my car I rarely get out of the city tbh, I guess I'm feeling it 🤣 I need to get on a train and get out to somewhere wild.
I look forward to reading your entry to this question of the week challenge.
I'm older than that! I may be the oldest person on Steemit. But I remember 39. I had not yet 'found' myself, either. Some of us take longer; some of us are really complicated :))
I hope you get on with the book. You know, I wanted to write all my life and never really did. And then, when I was over 60 (!!) it started to flow. I learned that if I didn't dwell on the project, but just began an outline, somehow the tension was broken and the words came to me. It's just a little trick, but if you sit down and don't think of it as a book, but merely as an outline, you may find yourself in the middle of something really productive.
I'm not underestimating your struggle. But you haven't given up. That's the important part. As long as you're fighting for what you want, the road is open.
I didn't write anything in response to the choice question. Got hooked up on trying to insert the picture of a child into a seascape. Hours and hours of that. But it's done. Never, ever give up :)).
Hope you have a peaceful day.
Your friend,
AG