Solitude

I look deep inside,
just to catch a glimpse of my life.
But I went too far…
so far I didn’t even notice
when I started going under.
Was it the weight on my shoulders,
or did I choose to stay there,
sitting inside my own thoughts?

Because the more I try to understand,
the more I get stuck.
Like every answer
opens another question.

I sit with it.
No running this time.
No trying to cover it up.

Just me…
and everything I’ve been avoiding.

And somewhere in all that,
I start to see it clearly
not all at once,
but little by little.

Maybe I didn’t lose myself.
Maybe I just went too far
without knowing how to come back.

But I’m learning now…
slowly,
how to find my way back to me.

Charcoal and crayon on paper

progress

The images below shows a step by step guide on how I was able to achieve this drawing. Starting from the freehand sketch, the pencil strokes that gave the face some depth and also the coloration on the face of my subject.

final sketch