Great post, I like it :)
Always seeking the opinion of others in order to make a decision is an external type of motivation. Trying to decide alone is a more internal type of motivation but the best thing we can do is to have a balance between the two.
Something I like to do when I meditate is to first think about my goal, where I want to get in like or in a certain situation. Then I lay out all the options in my mind and try to visualize every possible outcome. When I'm done I think about my goal again and try to find the outcome that may bring me closer to my goal. Ofc you cant always get the result you want but over time that simple thought experiment may bring more positive results :D

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