It has been a crazy year for me, I have been going through many many life changes and most recently. I've became a steemian, started to grow capital in the crypto-space, but the biggest life change I am going through is divorce.

Divorce feels like shit

I consider myself to be a very loving and caring type of guy when I am in a relationship. I like to exchange feelings and emotions with my partner so we can connect on a deeper level. I feel like when two people do this, they can get through almost anything and grow together in the right way. I had this feeling with my ex-wife, we had a deep bond and connection and it hurts to know that bond is now lost. I sit here on my boy's couch almost every day thinking about the connection we had, it was strong..so strong that it felt like we would be together forever. So to now not be together feels doubly as worse, it feels like cord has been severed from your body, and you now have to heal that wound on your own...it hurts, and it's not what I expected to feel so much of. I expected to be sad, but I did not expect to feel like a part of myself has been torn from me.

The Silver Lining

There's always something good to find even when things are bad. And the good thing in my life right is that I have a lot of big things happening right now and a lot of things to look forward to. I am working and building my brand and name on steemit and I am continually learning and growing in the crypto-space. It is something I did not expect to have been happening during this divorce, but I am glad it worked out this way. It keeps my mind occupied and it keeps me feeling like things will be okay. If i didn't have steemit and crypto, I think I might really be in a bad place mentally. So thank you SteemIT, I love you!

The Vlog