I could just add one more thing to that

that part

my bottle of vitriol is far from full, not that i didnt have any but i just wasnt at the keyboard most of the time so i spat it out into the sink or toilet or simply on the asphalt or the lawn)

THAT part where you and your thing go "BUT NO ONE DOES IT LIKE YOU DO" (meaning : you dont do it like its done) , i have the same answer because its one of your repeating patterns ,

if you take "the word" away from humans, mundanes more like, you are left with a surprisingly small number of patterns , and to that one i always have to counter :

"i take one look at your world"

and i know, how YOU do it

simply cant be the way

at least they have some that arent football it seems

sorry to disappoint, according to all doctors theres nothing wrong with me (that by itself seems like a contradiction which clearly makes it a lie)

to all the girls i loved before