Wow! You really had an awakening! I don't know if this is a true life story, if it is really you but I think I would be grateful to your friend for not enabling you and calling you out to get out of the rut! It is a blessing if you can actually stop and take a good hard look at yourself, where you are right now, for only then is there hope of moving forward.
Your dream really showed you your numbness and it too is a gift that it awakens some feelings in you upon awakening. I know I sure felt the anguish!
Oh, also there is a grammatical error in the paragraph about your dream - It should be I'm standing on a hill, not I'm stood on a hill.