The circumstances build you?
Inner blocks?
You know what? It is the first time I hear about it.
@wesphilbin wrote something about it in his #thoughtfuldailypost.
There is a contest going on and you can join too.
What is asked you can find HERE
@wesphilbin wrote:
The description was something like this:
Here at Inner Blocks, we would love to read or watch a time that someone supported you in one of your blocks!
Did they train with you while you were preparing for a race?
Did they give you a map before you left on a big trip?
Did they subject themselves to your experimental recipes and love you through your mistakes? wait, that might just be my family, lol
Or do they support you daily while you are trying to figure your life out?
Whatever it is, we want to know!
The truth.
I can not mention 1 single person that ever helped me or showed me the way.
I am an unwanted kid, molested, abused, nearly starved for hunger, spent my life in hospitals and with doctors.
No one ever felt pity for me, guided me, reached me a hand. No family member, no teacher, no neighbor, no doctor, no CPS, not one single person. I left at the age of 15 with nothing.
Really no one?
Yes, there was one person I could count on and that was me.
I had the luck not to be born stupid plus I have a strong will and self-esteem. I already had that as I was a toddler or perhaps a baby (born too early at home never taken to a hospital).
My common sense told me what was wrong and right. I read a lot and saw the world around me. I knew exactly how I did not want to be.
I never smoked, been drunk, used hard or soft drugs. I never partied, only studied and studied, worked and studied and worked to improve my own life.
I never was afraid to be alone, to move again and start a new life elsewhere.
No one guided me I found my way and all solutions for problems on my own. I did so at a time computers did not exist.
Today I am still dealing with everything alone.
I remember what someone said.
My granny for example. I only saw her for a short period in my life.
If it comes to memories. Nothing wrong with mine. I checked many out about 1 year ago and they are confirmed by complete strangers to me.
I have hardly any respect for people who watch at the sideline but do not act.
Since years I find no excuses for their behavior. Great, they are afraid of those rich and famous people who people we're my family and depend on them, but that is no excuse to watch a little child been beaten up with a dog's chain day after day.
The circumstances build you, make you what you are?
Partly. I have plenty of reasons to be a serial killer, grab a gun and start shooting at schools, teachers, in the neighborhood, the mal but I don't.
I doubt any judge/lawyer would consider the life I had. Only men seem to have the right to be confused and kill people for no reason.
It is character that guides you and makes you to what you are. Reason and common sense. You can blame others for your misery or make the best out of it and look forward.
My parents did not give me any values and norms.
They crossed every border, preached from the Bible around the clock but did not live by the rules themselves.
Still, I knew the difference between right and wrong. How? By observing thinking, wondering, looking for answers that make sense (not the ones I liked to hear).
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You are strong and I admire you for it despite everything you've gone through!
I can jump out of a window but that would not kill me. If I jump in front of a train I feel sorry for those who have to see it and clean up the mess plus it would not make any difference.
I go to a place where I can be with me. Find rest and peace and have freedom. I paid a very high price for that and will not give up on it.
There is also not much to lose if you live with the Death daily. I thing The Death is the safest person I know.
Thank you for reading and your kind comment.
If you ever fear ask yourself what the worst thing is that can happen to you. With me it was: being like my parents and been beaten to death. The last thing... it might sound horrible but I have been so close to that daily, for so many years. It does not scare you any longer. The first fear kept me alert.
My strong will is the only thing I have and that and creativity keeps me going on.
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Wow! Awesome
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Hey there! I see our curator @mosunomotunde already found you! I think it's amazing that you have learned from the examples around you instead of making it the normal for your life.
Thank you. I always wanted to know why, looked for answers myself not the easy ones adult and people give you. Might be you observe more and think/figure out more. If you cannot see you are not the only one or other treat each other better or have other norms for a reason you cannot be too smart.
I decided to leave. It was the best for me and I hoped also for the ones I left behind. They were not grateful to me still hate me but their lives changed partly into a more positive direction too.
Thank you for reading and commenting. Many people have no one that guides them, show the way or had a helping hand. It is not said that they all grow up screwed up and end up in jail.
On the contrary, if I read how many times people say "he was such a great student, beloved, etc."
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It takes a lot of inner strength to overcome the suffering and abandonment you have faced. I am glad you chose to observe the world and make better choices than so many who were given so much more ignore. Your depth and strength are admirable and you are an example of what choice means. In call it the Salmon Effect. !tip
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